you stupid phuck OBAMA: if you gave a sh!t about any veterans they would NEVER SERVE 3 or 4 TOURS! YOU let that happen. YOU ALONE: YOU ARE THE BOSS! Don't you dare try to fake this sh!t @ T-50! Phucking rtard... To all of you vets, I am sorry about what your very own country has done to you. Yes, you signed the line, but it said to protect the US from terrorists both foreign and domestic...not play world police. The horrible things you've lived through are because the Chiefs were sending you away from the only land you should protect just to be political cannon fodder. Please get help and GET ALL OF YOUR RECORDS RELATED TO YOUR SERVICE CONNECTION RELATED PROBLEMS AND FILE FOR 100% disability AT ALL COSTS! Make them pay.

It's just a new version of the same old shell game politicians play at election time. Wait until after the election when the Va's Budget gets slashed by a third. It's coming! I've been in the system since the 70s at the end of the Vietnam War. Back then, they system was not even a 3rd rate provider. Too many archaic rules and regulations, paperwork back logs which resulted in claims denials. I've watched the VA transform themselves many times over since then. Mostly for the good. However, the VA needs to have a Stable Budget not subject to presidential Veto. The spending for the VA needs to be mandatory, not discretionary as in the past. Year after Year, I've watched President after President slash VA Budgets because for one reason or another because it was easier to cut the spending for their budget. It is discretionary Spending. In order for the VA to take care of Veterans with honor and dignity, their budget must be increased at least by as much as the cost of living each year until they say otherwise. Because this country has had troops deployed around the globe in a combat situations for almost 11 years or more, and now as the wars are winding down, and they are coming home, we need to make sure there is adequate funding for adequate staffing to administer treatment to veterans. We must never forget the sacrifice of warriors and the promise of our nation to make sure they get the care they deserve.

I would like to share a letter inspired by this executive order.

It occurred to me after President Obama's Executive orders
last Friday in, basically, mandating that the VA do everything within its power
to lower the suicide rate, I am potentially a prime candidate representing
their failure. No, this is not a suicide
threat, but you have to know it crosses my mind if death would not just be
easier and, on days like the past few where I have been unable to hold up my
head for more than moments at a time in excruciating pain, I have even prayed
God would just take me. When we first
started speaking and I was telling you of the stories I am collecting as I can,
I did not understand why the man right around the corner from me had given up
and why another just gave up and blew his brains out. I want to live, but I will ONLY live if I am
free and this prison I am in now is NOT freedom.

I told you I am always the one that gets the short end of
the stick at one point also. To be fair,
I thrive in controversy so I have never really minded as it has always kept
life interesting. However, I am no
longer physically, mentally, and emotionally able to fight back against the
world anymore. How bad is it? How about an overview without much
explanation or details?

1) I have a son of whom I share legal custody with my wife
whom I believed to be dead for 13 years so I have never even met him. He is in Pennsylvania with someone who does
not have legal custody as my wife is out running from multiple felony warrants
in multiple states so he is legally abandoned.
The State police in Pennsylvania refused to allow me to pick him up even
though I have natural and marital parental custody.

2) Verizon wireless is charging me $500 for a phone that
fell apart out of the box into 6 pieces they lost upon its return so I am going
to lose my cell phone and then be charged the remainder of my phones costs
along with early termination fees so I will never be able to afford a decent
cell company again and it will assist in ruining my credit more than the VA and
the state of Alabama has.

3) I have been ordered to pay child support by Madison
County Alabama on only the word of the mother and without DNA evidence. I have the letter from them pretty much
stating that even with evidence they would not bastardize a child once parental
responsibility has been established leaving me still responsible for 30 some
odd thousand dollars which is also on my credit report.

4) I gave Chase bank a physical address for sending in
payments to Time Warner Cable and they sent it electronically without being
authorized. I did a claim stating this
and it was put back into my account so I could repay TWC. This week they took it back out of my account
again saying it was a valid transaction so that TWC has been double paid, my
account is over drawn, and now I will not be able to afford food for the next 6
weeks.

5) As I am generally restricted to the bed or the recliner
right next to the bed, my only real access to the world is the internet and the
only real difference in my life and being in a federal prison. TWC cannot keep my connection stable to save
their lives. Because I do not have cable
TV and use the internet to watch shows I want through streaming I can tell you
they falsely advertise their streaming capability and I pay for a connection
well and above the average. The only way
I get to have a stable connection is by spending an hour or so on the phone
with their tech support while they adjust my signal strength and settings and
then it will work fine for about a week and then start screwing up to make me
spend that hour on the phone again which would be fine if I could just up and
spend an hour doing anything.

6) My power chair the VAMC provided is less than a year old
and does not work for very long at a time.
A couple of days ago I unplugged it as it had been plugged in overnight,
went the 150 yards to my landlords house and only had two of the eight lights
remaining on the charge panel. I have a
video eight minutes long from a couple of weeks earlier of it only losing one
light and a second almost (flashing on and off as it teetered) from a round
trip. The VA will not repair it because
they put me in for another chair with a vehicle lift that I have not heard
anything about since and it was only supposed to take a week a few weeks ago.

7) I live in a home with interior doorways my chair will not
go through which means I must walk or crawl some whether I am able or not just
to be able to eat or go to the bathroom.
I take a shower an average of once every month or so because I cannot
physically get into the tub and am not eligible for home health as I can still
physically crawl out of the bed myself.
I do sit on the toilet and use a wash rag on days I can manage.

8) I want to build a home set up for both ambulatory and
handicap and even have redesigned the kitchen cabinets to make more sense for a
wheelchair. I want three foot doorways
and four foot hallways. I want a doggie
door connected to a fully enclosed pen so my Chihuahuas can go outside to pee
rather than use puppy pads by the door that tend to accumulate before I can
physically get to them. I want a tub
that I can manage which is big enough to immerse myself and float as floating
is as near to relaxed as I have been able to find and there is no pool therapy
in this area. I can afford all of this
with my VA certificate, but that requires credit which brings me to...

9) Every time I dispute a VA bill on my credit report, more
gets filed to it because the VAMC does not do its job keeping up with paying
its bills. I just got a second bill for
$1300 from newly applied bills that have appeared since I am trying to use my
credit. I do not have a choice but to
fight back if I want to use it and they know this so that I have to do their
job for them where I should have NO responsibility.

So tell me, with all of this that also keeps piling up
because I am helpless to keep up with it all, my pain levels, my immobility, no
hope for anything but more suffering at the hands of the VAMC, and the simple
fact I am as imprisoned as a mass murderer all because I served my country, why
should I want to live? I think it is
safe to say, that just a week after the executive order the Marion VAMC is in
direct violation. After a year of your
offices' inquiries that have only made things worse, is it not time the Senator
got directly involved before I starve over the next six weeks? Do not get me wrong, I have plenty of food in
the kitchen from food banks, but what good is it when I cannot physically do
complicated cooking that requires extended periods of energy and mobility?

If it comes to starving or suicide, I will choose
suicide. If it comes to suffocating more
than I now do for moments at a time, I will choose suicide. If it comes to wasting away with bedsores
because I cannot be mobile, I will choose suicide. I already live literally half a step above
criminal in prison, when it becomes the same thing I will choose suicide. I am in my right mind and you may not
understand or agree, but I can guarantee you would choose exactly the same a
week into living my life if you managed the first day with my pain levels at
all. The absolute worst of it is, with a
power chair and lift for travel and chiropractic once a month to relieve the
built up strain relieving some of my pain levels I might even have a chance of
finding an attorney to assist me to straighten some of my mess out that my
disability has complicated or at least file small claims suits myself. Of course, Marion repairing the work of the
Tuscaloosa VAMC dental clinic along with completing it so I could chew once
again would be nice, the mass removed from my left sinus cavity that makes it even
more dangerous for me to try and walk as it causes imbalance, deafening ringing
in my ears, and blindness intermittently in my left eye would be appreciated,
and a neurologist to see if they can figure out if there is any way they can
help me continue without getting worse would be fantastic!

And just because this says suicide and I have a grudge it is
time for the disclaimer. I am not a
danger to anyone else; period. I am not
a danger to myself and will not commit suicide as long as I have hope though
torture, abuse, neglect, and imprisonment are eroding that fast. This is not a threat and actually decisions I
made a long time ago when I thought I might find myself no longer able to walk
and living on the streets of Dallas homeless for the rest of my life though I
first started seriously considering my future decisions after the first Gulf
War when I worked in the supposedly best nursing home in the state of
Alabama. I only lasted nine months
because I could not take watching the neglect and being a part of it; if it
matters. I will not become a resident of
a home like that and spend my days covered in drool, urine, and crap doped
beyond actually being aware of life as that is not life, only living death and
I will choose pure death even if it is against my Faith. Who knows, maybe it is even now my purpose to
put my life up once again as sacrifice for others, for my country, so that
Marion VAMC is used as the example in defying an executive order. I may not be able to physically, mentally,
and emotionally follow through with most of my ambitions, but this is one that
is well within my abilities if it comes down to it. Before you think me insane in threatening to
take my life, it would not be any more insane that knowing what I know now and
reenlisting to serve my country again as that was suicide of my health and
freedom because the government fails to keep its responsibilities safe. It is also no less insane than my being
forced to try to walk as I cannot get my chair through small doors when it would
literally only take a head blow in the fall to break my neck with it in the
condition it is currently in and no less insane than driving to Wal-Mart and
having to crawl from the parking lot to the entranceway on the chance there is
a power cart available so I can go shopping.
Oh, I have someone going with me to video the next time I go and I
wonder if I can get it posted online enough places to make it go viral as I do
not fight with death and violence. It is
time everyone begins to recognize that to be a disabled veteran it is mandatory
to give up pride and self-respect to embrace shame just to be able to survive.

And yes, this letter could be used to have me locked up for
an evaluation which will also serve a purpose if that is the route you choose,
but in considering the fallout from that action it probably removes that option
as it would only finish me off financially and cost me my pets which are some
days the only reason I move along with substantiating any excuse to punish and
torture those who want to still live after becoming disabled through serving
our country. Besides, this is not a
suicide note or threat, just a consideration of is this what sacrifice I will
have to make for my country and to stop suffering abuse and neglect for myself
and others?

It is also not my wish to threaten the senator's reputation
in any way or embarrass him but considering two separate reporters have started
researching and asking questions finally, questions are going to start in why a
year of senatorial involvement has only made things worse. As I see it, there are five weeks remaining
before the Presidential elections and publically failing to follow an executive
order that makes sense could cost an election or showing the President’s
inability to have his orders executed could win it for the Republicans though
that only matters is McConnell cares about this country, doesn’t it?

Have a good weekend as you get to be outside if you choose!

God Bless

Ron Hobson; Rev.